Holy Thrice Cover Batman!

WOW! IS the only way to describe this cover of Thrice's Deadbolt...WOW!

Test Drive

So new look, new feel for the ol’ blogging thingy. Could be temporary, could be permanent. I’m having a hard time finding a template that works for me. I thought I found the perfect one called ‘Scrapbook’; top of the page had pics looking like their hanging by a piece of tape. Shitty part is I couldn’t find a way to change the hanging pictures. I know this doesn’t look like much for showcasing my photography/other art work but I needed some different and this was the one I found I liked the most.

So let me know what you think, what works, what doesn’t, and if you have any suggestions as to where I can find some awesome blogger templates that’d be great.

Later

Wednesday was Significant After All

So I guess I was wrong in saying that I had no reason to feel that way I did on Wednesday. I had a reason after all. September 16 (this past Wednesday) was my late Grandfather’s birthday. My Grandfather and I were quite close and I knew his birthday was in September but I thought earlier than the 16^th. Anyways my Grandfather and I were very close and I guess that’s why I had a feeling of forgetting something and maybe he was even reaching out. So today I’ll be going to the cemetery where my Grandparent’s & Uncle are resting.

Well it Wasn’t Gas!

It wasn’t anything ... (if you don’t know what I’m talking about read yesterday’s post) A completely uneventful day.

A few posts ago I talked about addressing when change is needed and what type a changes they might be. Well today I signed out of my hotmail and upon getting redirected to Sympatico/MSN I caught a glimpse of the horoscope box on the right hand side of screen and it left me saying, “hmm...interesting.”

NOTE: I’m not one for reading horoscopes AT ALL! But it’s interesting that I had the urge to do so today. Anyways here it is:

‘New ideas and concepts regarding the way you make your living might come your way today, dear Capricorn, which could cause a bit of a shake-up in your value system. You might decide to tackle an entirely new profession that you've never considered before. Books on the subject could prove supportive and encouraging, as could those closest to you. At this time, it's important to follow your heart. Go for it!’

Is this the type of change that I have been searching for? I’m not sure.
Do I think that this kind of change would benefit me? You know, a change of scenery might be nice and after seeing this I’m going to full heartedly re-evaluate what I want to do for a living.

Well that’s all I have for now.

Stay tuned for my dream/wish to run a marathon... IN GREECE!!!!!!

Unexplained Feeling

Before unlocking my iPod Touch my eyes caught the date at the top of the screen ‘Wednesday, September 16’and I instantly felt some sort of significance for this day. I’ve been looking at my calendars, checking outlook, checking my notes for things that I am suppose to do today and have found nothing. Nothing explains why I suddenly got this feeling

What does this mean? Is something going to happen that is of significance that I’ll always remember? Is it a warning sign that I am in grave danger? Or is it just gas? I don’t feel gassy though.... Weird....

I’ll update tomorrow to fill you in on the rest of my Wednesday, September 16.

CRASH, SMASH, BAM Kind of 2009-2010 NHL Season for the Leafs

1 sleep until Leafs preseason, 15 until regular season

Jonas “Monster” Gustavsson, Mike Komisarek, Francois Beauchemin, Garnet Exelby, Wayne Primeau, Rickard Wallin, Colton Orr, Joey MacDonald.

These are all the new comers the Leafs have signed/trade for this off season and soon we’ll get to see how (GM) Brian Burke’s handy work pans out. Potential to crack the line up as rookies are: Nazem Kadri, Viktor Stalberg, Tyler Bozak and Chrisian Hanson.

Can’t remember the last time I was this excited for the start of the NHL season. The Toronto Maple Leafs, although may have a hard time making the playoffs, are going to be bruisers. Last year the team was pushed around a beaten up a lot, and so Brian Burke addressed that issue by signing some big and/or nasty guys. A lot of people are complaining that Burke didn’t sign a true sniper to put the puck in the net and that he focused too much on his defence. Although I do wish that Toronto could have brought in a franchise type of player to bolsters the firing squad, I look at it this way...

The Leafs had a fair amount of young guys on their team. They also had their own share of smaller guys on their team. Their so called “snipers” weren’t able to have the space and freedom to show off their offensive abilities. They’d cross the blue line and BAM, laid out, they’d race for the puck to the end of the rink and SMASH, they’re flattened into the end boards, and get too eager in front of the net CRASH, they’re either in the net or they’re taking their teeth out of the crossbar.

When the team was getting pushed around too much last year you know who was coming to stand up for everyone? Usually a rookie... 18 years old...standing up for the rest of the Toronto Maple Leafs. He wasn’t always the only one but he showed a lot more heart and courage than most of them.

So Brian Burke hopefully solved that problem. Our “skilled” players aren’t going to be able to get knocked around without retaliation. So as long as the retaliation came come at no cost we’ll be alright and might be able to put some fear into other teams, but one of the big things that might hurt the team this year is penalties.

GM Brian Burke, and head coach Ron Wilson have both said they want the other teams to hate facing them. As long as we can do that without spending too much time in the penalty box then here’s to a hard fighting, won’t take crap from anyone kind of hockey team.

GO LEAFS!

When is Change Needed?

Questions I’ve been asking myself a lot lately. When is change needed? What needs to change? How do I get there?

Is it anxiety, is it depression, or is it both? Is it common social expectations of what one should have, should be, should be doing with their lives that makes me asks these questions?

Every now and then I get into a rut of feeling unaccomplished, unsatisfied, and just plain unhappy and trying to find an answer as to why can be extremely frustrating. I do have wonderful things in my life; a beautiful wife and an adorable daughter, both of which I am very proud of. They are what keep me balanced, keep me sane. I’ve had someone tell me that I should do more for myself and since I’ve heard that I realize that I have put myself at the bottom of my priorities list.

The problem is I don’t know how? When I do things for myself, even if it’s as simple as walking to clear my head, I feel bad because I should be doing something else, and the something else isn’t something for me. I find myself to be a very selfless person which shouldn’t be a bad thing (to be selfless) unless it’s at a point where you feel distant with who you truly are. So after so long of me putting everyone else’s needs, wants and wishes before my own I feel as if I subconsciously resent myself for how I treat myself and my deteriorating self esteem.

Maybe I need a new job, maybe I need a new house, maybe I need to live in a different part of the country or maybe something as simple as buying a new Queen or King sized bed would solve my problem. In any case at least I can rely on my wife and daughter for balance, sanity and sobriety. Also, I believe that I am headed in the right direction because I can admit to having a problem and admit that I need to change...for the better.

I hope that this doesn’t come off as me crying “Poor Me! Boo hoo hoo!” but more of a check point to evaluate what you do for yourself, and how you treat yourself.

Coming up next post....Upcoming NHL Season! Stay tuned